Disturbing

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
I've been bugged the last couple of days by the disturbing nature of the dreams I've been having. Since getting pregnant again, I've been dreaming a lot, but lately, the dreams have been more vivid, more violent and more detailed than I've had before.

I'll highlight the last 3 nights for you. A couple of nights ago I dreamed of getting stabbed in the throat and seeing every detail of what was going on around me in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. The ambulance had see-through sides, and we were making our way through downtown St. Paul, and I could see all the people staring in at me. The next night - without going into too much detail because this one was gross and gory, I dreamed I was about as far along in my pregnancy as I currently am and that I went to the bathroom and there was blood and "stuff" everywhere, and basically, by the end of the dream, I had lost the baby. Last night I dreamed that I borrowed the SUV of a guy I went to high school with (and wasn't even friends with, by the way) so that I could make it to one of my good high school friend's house because she lived way down in this weird valley with a really winding, curvy, twisting, bumpy road. On the way down, I flipped the SUV and had all kinds of bruises and cuts all over my face.

I'm getting a little paranoid that something horrible is going to happen to me! It seems like I dream all night, granted, who really knows how much we actually dream, and not all of the dreams are horrible. I wake up remembering one yucky dream every morning. I'm already starting to get uncomfortable at night without having these nightmares to look forward to, as well. Anyone have any insights?

3 comments:

CarolSue said...

Notes on dream analysis from Dawn S.---

There are different kinds of dreams. There are the one's that are just a weird combination of things that have happened to you lately. Our subconscious is working through those things in order to sort them out and kind of "discard" them from the subconscious. The other kind is usually really off the wall and you think, "Where did that come from?" It is your subconscious telling you to pay attention to something going on in your life. Most people dream 5-7 times a night but we usually only remember the one's that really affect us in a way that we want to find out what they are about. The dream symbols are not necessarily literal meanings. However, there are usually very interesting things in them that give you insight into what you need to know and leave you thinking about them long after you have them. Here's some dream symbols from the first dream. I'll send you the other ones too.
Stab
To dream that you have been stabbed, signifies your struggle with power. You may be experiencing feelings of inadequacy and defensiveness.
Throat
To see your throat in your dream, symbolizes the ability to express yourself and communicate your thoughts/ideas.
Neck
To see your neck in your dream, signifies the relationship between the mind/mental and the body/physical. It represents willpower, self-restriction and your need to control your feelings and keep them in check. To dream that your neck is injured, indicates a separation between your heart and mind.
Ambulance
To see an ambulance in your dream, indicates that your careless activities and indiscretion may lead to major problems and complications. This dream may also stem from your own fears of declining health or that you have contracted a disease. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to stop and pay close attention to some waking situation.
Hospital
To see a hospital in your dream, symbolizes your need to heal or improve your physical or mental heath. You need to get back to the flow of everyday life.
Downtown
To dream that you are in downtown, represents your material concerns and possessions. It may indicate the hustle and bustle of your life.
People
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront.
Staring
To dream that someone is staring at you represents anxiety or pride.
Glass (You said you could see through the sides of the ambulance....was it glass?)
To dream that you are looking through glass, represents your openness and non-defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be putting up an invisible emotional barrier around yourself.

CarolSue said...

Dream #2:
Pregnant
To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.
To dream that you are pregnant with the baby dying inside of you suggests that a project you had put a lot of effort into is falling apart and slowly deteriorating.
If you are pregnant and having this dream, then it represents your anxieties about the pregnancy. In the first trimester, your dreams usually consists of tiny creatures, fuzzy animals, flowers, fruit and water. In the second trimester, your dreams will reflect your anxiety about being a good mother and concerns about possible complications with the birth. Finally, in the third trimester, you will tend to dream about your own mother.
Bathroom
To dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to "relieve yourself". Alternatively, it may symbolize purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically.
Blood
To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments.
To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you. Women often dream of blood or of someone bleeding shortly before or during their periods and when they are pregnant.
Baby
To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies may symbolize something in your own inner nature which is pure, vulnerable, and/or uncorrupted. Babies may represent an aspect of yourself that is vulnerable and helpless.
If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desire to be completely care for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility. If you are pregnant, then a more direct interpretation may simply mean that you are experiencing some anxieties of making it to the hospital when the time comes.
To see a dead baby in your dream, symbolizes the ending of something that is part of you.
Miscarriage
For expectant mothers, dreams of miscarriages are common in the second trimester of pregnancy.

CarolSue said...

Dream #3:
People (Eric)
To see people from your past in your dream, refers to your shadow and other unacknowledged aspects of yourself. It can represent a waking situation that is bringing out similar feelings as your past relationships.
Friend (Janelle)
To see your childhood friend in your dream, signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities and things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned.
Vehicle
To dream that you are riding in a vehicle (car, SUV, etc.), denotes that you are in control of your life or that others are exerting power over you depending on who is in the driver's seat.
To dream that you are thrown from a vehicle, symbolizes hasty and unpleasant news.
Driving
To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. If you are driving and cannot see the road ahead of you, then it indicates that you do not know where you are headed in life and what you really want to do with yourself. You are lacking direction and goals. If you are driving on a curvy road, then it indicates that you are have difficulties in achieving your goals and the changes associated with it.
To dream that someone else is driving you, represents your dependence on the driver. You are not in control of your life and following the goals of others instead of your own. If you are driving from the passenger side of a car, then it suggests that you are trying to gain control of the path that your life is taking. You are beginning to make your own decisions.
To dream that you drive off a mountain road, suggests that the higher you climb in life, the harder it is to stay at the top. You feel that your advanced position is a precarious one. It takes hard work to remain at the top. You may also feel that you are not able to measure up to the expectations of others.
Road
To see a road in your dream, indicates your sense of direction and pursuit of your goals. To see a winding, curvy, or bumpy road in your dream, suggests that you will experience many obstacles and setbacks in achieving your goals. You may be met with unexpected difficulties. If the road is dark, then it reflects the darker or more frightening choices which you have made or are making.
To see an unknown road in your dream, signifies that you new project will cause more grief than it is worth and a waste of time.
Valley
To dream of a valley, signifies positive change resulting in happiness and peace.
Accident
To dream that you are in an accident, signifies pent up guilt and you are sub-consciously punishing yourself over it.
To dream of a car accident, symbolizes your emotional state. You may be harboring deep anxieties and fears. Are you "driving" yourself too hard? This dream may tell you to slow down before you hit disaster. You need to rethink or re-plan your course of actions and set yourself on a better path.
Face
To see your own face in your dream, denotes the persona you choose to show to the world as oppose to the real you. It may refer to confrontations and your willingness to deal with problems and issues in your life.
To dream that your face is flawed or pimply, represents erupting emotions. You may have suffered an attack on your persona or your reputation.
Bruise
To dream that you have a bruise, represents stress and mounting pressure that you are dealing with in your waking life. It may also refer to a reawakening of old, family wounds. Alternatively, you need to accept the consequences of your actions. Consider the symbolism of the specific part of your body that is bruised.
Cut
To dream that you have a cut, suggests that you are being let down or being undermined. Alternatively, it refers to feminine sexuality and feminine attitudes toward sex. In particular, if the cuts are on your legs, then it symbolizes an imbalance. You are unable to stand up for yourself. (See: face)